30 Day Challenge: Day 18

Day 18: Something You Regret

This one is surprisingly easy for me. I'm terribly tempted to write that I regret my relationship with Rylan, but I don't. It molded me into the person I am today. I know what NOT to do in my next relationship, if I ever have one, in order to avoid making the same stupid mistakes. I am stronger because of what I went through with him.

I do, however, regret the way I acted after we broke up. I was a wreck. I completely broke down and became that stupid girl who thinks her life is over because a boy broke her heart. Stupid. I couldn't eat for months. I came home every weekend. I cried and cried and cried. I had my first huge panic attack at a New Years party. I missed a fancy dinner with friends because I had to go to the doctor to get help. I became secluded and probably alienated so many people that could've become good friends. It was a bad time in my life.

And no offense to anyone who has acted this way.. it's just NOT me. I spent my entire life trying to be as independent as possible, and for me to suddenly throw that away because of a boy is ridiculous.

I wasted two years of my life trying to get over him. I regret that it took that long.